Happy Monday Dreamers!
I am going to start a new series on my blog where I talk about different experiences to help you guys go after your dreams and help remind you not to give up on those dreams.
I wanted to share with you all my personal experience with my past American Idol Audition in August of this year. I auditioned for American Idol back in 2011 in South Carolina, but did not make it past the first round. Needless to say, I was devastated then, I would be devastated 6 years later. Since I had attended an American Idol Audition before, expectations were low, due to the fact that I had some sort of idea what I was going to be up against.
The ship sailed – I learned shortly after that first audition in 2011 that Idol and becoming a singer was not in my future. I found out newer passions other than singing. This was hard for me at the time because singing was my passion, but I knew it would not make me money. It was just something I knew that I had the ability of doing, but I cannot purse a career in because of my lack of knowledge in the music industry.
I had decided I would go to college and pursue creating my own event planning business. I studied business and moved on into a local university in Tampa, leaving my singing career on the back burner.
There is never a day that goes by, whether it is in my car, shower, desk at work, or in my head that I am singing a song. Singing got me through the toughest points in my life. In my Introduction to Cheyenne Blog, I discussed how I was bullied in middle school. The moments I needed music the most were during the times I was bullied. I would sing my heart out because it made me happy. To this day it still makes me happy.
When I learned American Idol would be coming to Disney Springs, kicking off their first audition city at the happiest place on Earth and rebooting, I knew exactly that I was going to be auditioning no matter what. Since the day I found out, I created a playlist on all my favorite songs to sing. I practiced every day – asking friends and family what song should I sing. I later determined I wanted to sing “Blank Space” by Taylor Swift.
With American Idol, it is all about song choice, “Blank Space,” was not the best song choice. I will admit, I regret singing that song – but I know I knocked it out of the park! It was my best rendition and I made it my own.
I attended this audition with my best friend, Zach. We stood in line for 6 hours in the mid-day heat. I cannot express how many times I felt nervous and wanted to pass out because of the heat/thought of singing again. I had not sang in front of people in about 3 years.
I almost gave up half way through the line because of the heat and the self doubt. I remember the feeling of waiting in the line underneath the white tents and feeling nervous mixed with a minor heart attack. I knew that once I got through the tents and into the gated area I’d be okay.
The way it was set up was several mini tents with 2 producers at each tent with golden tickets. It was rare when someone would get a golden ticket. I watched amazing talent walk away without a ticket. Several people were busting out Whitney Huston notes and receiving nothing in return. Once I passed the gate into the garden area of Disney Springs for the auditions, the producers placed us in rows of 4.
I realized in that moment in line, I was not going to make it. There was something that told me I needed to do this for myself – to prove that I was able to overcome the no I received in 2011.
I performed and was told no. I sang the best I could, even though I knew in my heart that I was not going to make it through to the next round. I was told that my voice was very theatre and sounded too Disney (which is not a bad! I took it as a compliment). Despite the outcome, I was so happy that I went to Disney Springs for this audition. The amount of overwhelming support is what made it possible for me to move on. It was amazing that so many people supported a dream of mine that I put on the hold.
I had told myself before the audition that if I didn’t make it past the first round, singing was something that was not meant for me. I also told myself that if I didn’t make it, that blogging and my personal shops would be something that I would focus more attention to because that would indicate the path that I am set to be on.
I do believe that it’s not meant to be my career, but it will always be a part of me. I am grateful for that day. I learned that I can do anything that I set my mind to.
The moral is to follow your dreams and don’t live with the regrets and “what-ifs”. I am happy that I have the memory to look back on now.
This experience helped me realize that next year I will audition again and never give up. If the opportunity is there, there is no excuse to go after my dream. As they say, third time is a charm! The best advice I can give to anyone who wants to do a reality shows is to not get upset with the outcome. Make something positive out of the no.
I hope the blog inspired you to go after your dreams no matter how big or small.
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Thank you for reading!
Until the next blog,